11.30 am
And I know I’m not.
11.42am
她在你身邊逗你開心, 我只不過讓你歇斯底里.
11.47am
I don’t wanna lose you
I don’t wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
I don’t wanna hate you
I don’t wanna take you
But I don’t wanna be the one who cry
That don’t really matter, to anyone anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place, I keep seeing you walk through that door
And there’s no way home, when it’s late at night and all alone
11.51am
我知道 - by2
11.55am
喜帖街
12noon
我就是要這樣
你能拿我怎樣
12.04pm
Learn to say NO.
12.06pm
There must be something wrong with the MLTs’ aircon. It’s freaking cold.
12.07pm
I’m not jealous but why is everyone celebrating Halloween?
12.10pm
Even the lecturer is talking about Halloween. What is Halloween? I never celebrated one before.
12.13pm
When there are poor that are happy, there are rich who are lonely. That’s life.
12.18pm
I feel like going home. When is school ending?
12.20pm
i miss 大熊, like forever.
1.00pm
My birthday is coming.
1.35pm
My SM group sucks.
2.35pm
I flipped SM tutorial handout, and I’m graduating in a few weeks time. Was Poly life memorable? Definitely, no.
2.37pm
MST is approaching in about 3 weeks.
2.40pm
Nope, it’s 4 weeks.
2.42pm
I WANT TO EAT ICE CREAM!!!!
-Creamy Creamy, Daily Scoop, Golden Mile?, Beach Road….
I WANT EAT ICE CREAM!!!!
I don’t know why I’m having this craving.
2.45pm
Teacher said “moment of truth”. I din’t catch any word but these. Moment of Truth, this Wednesday 4/11/09 @ 12.30pm.
2.49pm
This tutorial is getting bored. Can the teacher go to the next question so that I can check my answer? Stop saying about this question!
2.51pm
Who wants to come back Singapore Poly? Funny.
2.55pm
Learn to say NO to people I care. Cause I know how to say NO to people I don’t care.
3.07pm
I forgot to deposit cheque! It’s like don’t know how many days le!
3.09pm
I’m starting to enjoy having conversation with myself.
3.13pm
Can she start the lecture?
3.14pm
Shit! I feel so bad in this lecture hall. Like so extra, as if there’s me or without me it’s the same. I feel like existing the lecture hall NOW! So EXTRA, yeah and I feel like crying. FUCK!
3.16pm
Don’t cry!
3.19pm
I really feels that I’m extra. I’m trying to talk to myself so I don’t cry. I’m writing to keep myself busy.
3.20pm
When going to school makes me feel extra. Attending SM lectures makes me feel worst.
3.23pm
I don’t like coming to school. There’s nothing exciting, positive, happy about being here.
3.25pm
If I could love God alittle more.
3.26pm
Don’t tear. I really don’t like attending SM lecture.
3.27pm
Can I don’t attend SM lecture anymore?!
Shut up! I should listen to lecture NOW!
3.31pm
Life is wishes grant too late. At least it applies to me.
3.39pm
It’s raining outside. There’s thunder. And I want to cry.
3.41pm
Have I taken medicine? I don't know and I don't care.
3.41pm
I’ve been talking to myself since 11.30 am. Woah, actually I have so many things to talk in school. But why am I not talking more than 10 sentence in school everyday for like at least half a year?
3.44pm
I don’t like SM lecture.
3.45pm
And it starts with the letter ‘L’.
3.48pm
I feel better. Is it because lecture is ending?
3.50pm
Lecturer has been touching on weird topics.
3.54pm
Argh!
3.55pm
And what does this means?
In the past, I’m always the one making effort to find people. Stupid me!
And for the past one year, I've realised; No one bothers to make the same effort towards me. To other people, it doesn’t makes any difference whether I’m there or not. I must be a nuisance to them in the past and no one bothers to tell me the truth.
4.10pm
And I’ve make up my mind. I won’t be attending SM lecture anymore.
