Oh, did I mention about double degree somewhere in any of my post? haha.... If I had, it's ok to mention again isn't it? =)
I'd decided to take double Bachelor. Reason: I want to run far far away, start anew. Clean and fresh. No one knows what had happened. Double Bach. means can run away for a longer period of time!
A turtle reason, I know but that's the only way to start all over again.
Bachelor of Arts (Asian Studies)
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still having a headache over the second one for like 3 months already.
Its either I abandon Business and take up Bachelor of Science (Psychology) or I continue with Business AND if I chose to continue with Business, I have to chose between either Commerce or Economics. Sadly to say, none among the 20 majors in the Commerce and Economics really interest me alot. =( However, I'd managed to highlight one which is Bachelor of Economics (International Business Economics). Not that it really interest me, but Bachelor of Commerce gives me the feeling that it's as useless as Diploma in Business Administration, the one I'm taking now. Do I need some corrections, or am I really right about this? SOS.
Have to work extra extra hard. If people put in 100% of their heart, I need to put in triple the effort.
Reason 1: I did not enter my dream school and course, NP's Business Studies. I did not appeal, which I could have successfully appeal if I did. I should have put JJC as my first choice, such a confirm seat and I gave it up. Can't find the reason why I landed up in SP's DBA. Maybe it's not the reason that I'm really finding, I'm just searching hard for a good thing that can make me be thankful about getting into SP's DBA. Unfortunately, looks like I really can't find one.
Reason 2: I wasted 1.5 yrs having "fun" that I regret now and "fun" that doesn't pay off emotionally. "Fun": Actually, thinking back, those times don't even seems fun now. It's just memories of how I'd wasted my time and effort and it became a constant reminder not to do those type of foolish things again, cannot trust people easily. Men are animals which can't be trusted.
Reason 3: I just found out that poly was really wasting my time. I could have been going into 3rd year of uni in one month time. I should have go straight to aust after O's, study one year of foundation and go straight into uni. Signs.... Hate to say this, but I should have done that rather than enduring all the shit.
I getting more than ready to go aust. I'm clear about the school I want to go into. Decided to stay in school's hostel for a year then move out by by the second year. I'd bought a new luggage. I'd bought a new notebook. I'd bought clothes to bring over. Do you feel that I'm getting more than ready for aust? Too over? haha.... Then Kelvin is way worst. I think it was one month ago when he started to tell me 'those speeches' as if we are bidding goodbye at Changi airport. Nevertheless, those encouragement warms a sad person's heart and those suggestions, I promise to consider them carefully. =)
The only thing left is to work hard, really hard, I'm only that little away from UWA. Must really work hard. I like the way, I'm worried every minute about results and projects during my 10 days of holiday. haha.... I even did project in such a far far away land! Imagine that! HAHAHAHA! I can see the competitive me coming back! woots! But this time different, in the past I'll work hard, play hard. This time, there's no such thing as play hard! It's work hard, study hard. So eventually, everything is about school's work and results! haha....
Initially, I had another wish about hoping that everything will be fine, even if its just a false appearance will be alright for me. But, ....
I won't wish for things that I'm not confident in anymore and the more I won't wish for things that requires two hands to clap. Cause....
