Celebration from Andrew, Lawrence and Hanrong was an impromtu and surprised one.

Glad that I meet a group of fun and talented church friends and that's a blessing from God!

Went to sing k with Kel, Singkiat and Ken at Kallang. Did the usual things, and it's the usual things that we do that makes me happy. Like what Singkiat said, it's been a long time since Kel, me and him took train together. I'm glad that I made the right choice, I no longer feel those pair of eyes that will stare at my back if I talk to the both of them. Ken joined us instead, it's fated, I confirm.

26th January 2010

Kelvin and Carrie gave me a huge surprise. I really don't know what I've did that I deserved this present from them. I really don't know what to say cause I know for Kelvin to do some of the things inside the video he needs courage. I never did great things to Kelvin before. For his birthdays I din't do anything great, for his life I did nothing great too, moreover the those bad things I've did. For his birthday I did not put in a lot of effort, instead it was someone else birthday that I really put my heart in. I'm really lost for words cause I don't think I deserve such a wonderful gift. Carrie too, I really did nothing much and she put in so much effort doing the video.

Had a talk with Kelvin during lunch and I cried like how I'm crying now. There's just some emptiness inside that I'm still learning to live with it. Kelvin encouraged me to try for the one last time, but it's a thing that requires two hands to clap. I'm afraid.

Not a good friend, not anymore.

Not the best, not anymore.

Not a miracle, not anymore.

Somethings changed and it really changed.?

Are you really my family or you are just a stranger in for a ride?

That Awkward Silence .